What we call the beginning is often the end. And to make an end is to make a beginning.

The anticipation of change (1)



A new series: 

I have been playing around with options in my mind for a new body of work.

I need a specific series to work towards as I am very scatter-minded and get distracted easily. Also, it gives me focus and helps me to be more dedicated.

Over the years a theme of “searching” keeps on popping up in my work from time to time, but it was never full on or obvious, always once off paintings intertwined between random other themes. 

The “Searching and Displace”go hand in hand for me.

I think in my subconscious mind, the “Displace” series I am starting with now, started out with this painting I did in December while I was on holiday.

Displace: Swallow
Displace: Swallow

This was symbolic for stepping out of my life, I want to lock up time as time takes one hostage. Time, as in clock time, is an eroding factor in our lives.

The Swallow is symbolic for changing seasons in your life.  It is a sign of embracing your journey and finding joy and happiness along the way.

Part 1:

My start…
I want to build this series around universal questions we ask around challenges we all face.
We all feel our challenges are unique,  but in a way they are all the same, therefore I feel that most people will be able to associate with the messages in these paintings.
We sit with questions like: “Where to now?” whether it is literally or emotionally. 
Questions the whole time. 
What now, how should I do it…
My child struggles with… how do I handle it
I am stuck in my business/ work, should I do this, do that…?
What will the next step be, how should I handle the obstacles?
My relationship… how do I handle that!?

Road Trip:

I did a little series of road trip paintings after my time in Western Cape over December.

While driving back home, I saw these images in my head.

Our trip started out in Robertson, from there, Montagu, Knysna, Mossel Bay and the last week in Hartenbos. Living out of our suitcases for a month, packing up and go the whole time, excitement, new ventures.

I loved doing these paintings and it started with the Nissan Levina, which is my car!

The last one with the donkey was commissioned by the client who bought these paintings.

Road Trip , symbolic trips
Road Trip, symbolic trips

Not only was my holiday like that, pack up and go, repeat…for some reason, I cannot settle down, therefore my life looks like that as well. 


I can associate with the following quotes and they will be the starting points of my next paintings to follow, as my mind works in pictures, words like these triggers me to find ideas for paintings.

“I’ve always tried to make a home for myself, but I have not felt at home in myself. I’ve worked hard at being the hero of my own life. But every time I checked the register of displaced persons, I was still on it. I didn’t know how to belong.” 
― Jeanette Winterson

“We lingered under the threshold of the bedroom for a while, thresholds are safe, but unfortunately you can’t stay there forever.  -Kate Atkinson- 

“The origins of the word thresh are identical to those of turn, contour, return, and thread. And today, threshold not only refers to a doorway or gate but also means both a new beginning and a limitation. 

Do not think of doors as obstacles or whatever is on the other side. Practice opening them magnanimously and closing them with care. Through the mundane activity of entering and leaving a doorway, you can make a commitment to being either inside or outside of something larger than yourself. You can think about what you are leaving behind, about what you are entering into. 

Doors are places that can become turning points, either you pass through them or they block your path. Sometimes it doesn’t take anything very substantial for you to fabricate a close door. (How very true!)  “Sweeping Changes” – Gary Thorp


Find the Light
Find the Light  25x25cm: Acrylic painting on stretched canvas – R1600 

“The future is like a cupboard full of light and all you have to do is find the key that opens the door”

I am busy reading  Behind the scenes at the Museum   by Kate Atkinson and this sentence in the book inspired above painting.

Uprooted - Acrylic on stretched canvas, 25x25cm R1600
Uprooted – Acrylic on stretched canvas, 25x25cm R1600  “Ontwortel” 

“What we call the beginning is often the end. And to make an end is to make a beginning. The end is where we start from.” 

Quote by T.S. Eliot

34x60cm 19M07 R5600
34x60cm R5600  – “And to make an end is to make a beginning”


If you find yourself in the dark...
No words required for this painting.. “If you find yourself in the dark…” SOLD 

Found object Sculpture:

I think creating sculptures and furniture out of “found objects” are the most joyful moments for me in my creative life. Sometimes I keep “stuff” for years before I suddenly just know what do do with them and they get transformed into whimsical, weird and wonderful creatures and creations. 

Stand tall little one
Stand tall little one – SOLD

“It looks to me like you’re using a wall to prop you up. That’s not my definition of ‘standing.’ ”
“It’s leaning… “Leaning comes right before standing.” 
(Cassandra Clare, City of Ashes)
Found object sculpture created out of an abandoned porcelain doll, wooden blocks and other little treasures I have been collecting over the years.
The little miniature vintage suitcase I made out of an old jewelry box. 
This girl is indeed a whimsical creature and ready to stand tall…



I hope you enjoyed reading this post, and understand my line of thought a little better after this.

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